It’s going to be very hard to stay motivated now that school is pretty much optional. It’s not like anything I do can bring my grades down anymore. Of course, I’m still going to do my work (I don’t have anything better to do), but at this point I just want things to be normal for one day. I’ll go right back into quarantine after, but I just want one day to see my friends and go out to eat and watch a sport and see my horse. I’ll even go to school and take tests that I haven’t studied for in every class. This being stuck inside thing is just so hard. I’m not tired at night because I don’t do anything during the day, so I’m staying up way too late doing literally nothing.
Mom’s still going to work for the time being. We’re not sure yet when Boeing plans to close down, but they’ve had at least one possible case in a guy that works on my mom’s program, so if we’re going to get it this would be the time. My birthday’s on Wednesday. I’m not going to be able to do anything for it. I get that there are people who have it a lot worse than me, but come on. This is my 18th birthday, and I’m going to spend it stuck inside. We can’t even go out to eat or something.
If there is a silver lining to this, it’s that technically, I’m done with high school. We only have a little over a month left anyway. It’s probably going to feel longer than that, but time is a construct anyway and I haven’t understood the passage of time for the past month anyway. Has it really been almost a month? Our last day of school was the 12th, I think, so almost. That’s so crazy to me.
Song of the day: drinking games by silver sphere
Melayed Penalty 